Tuesday, April 29, 2008

All there is to see

You’ve seen,
All there is to see
The good, the bad and
 Everything in between
How you found, what you found
 I do not know, but one thing
Is for sure
You’ve seen what no one
 Has seen before
It amazes me that it took you
 So little time to see through me
I never thought I was like
An open book
But I guess I am,
When I’m around you
Because I want you
 To find all there is to see

(c) Me

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You

Every time I look into your
Big beautiful blue eyes
I can see all there is to see
And I can’t stop myself from
Wondering how to go on

I’m afraid of myself when
I’m around you, afraid of
What I might do
Afraid of losing control
And doing something
 That might complicate it all, even more

Every time you look at me
I can feel your look
See right through me
I can’t hide and I don’t want to
Because I’m not afraid of
What you might find
Wishing everything was different
And uncomplicated, but for now
I’ll settle for our late night
Walks and talks that get me
Through the days when you’re
Not there to make me smile

(c) Me

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Sunday, April 27, 2008

Butterflies

I used to think
 That butterflies
 Where for kids
 But every time
 You look at me
Every time
 You talk you me
I can feel the
 Butterflies
 Going round
 And round
 In my stomach

Don’t know
 How long
I can go on
Like this
But for now
I’ll cherish
 Your friendship
And I’ll let
 The butterflies
Occupy me
Because they’re

All I have

(c) Me

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Don’t believe anymore

I don’t think it’s meant to be, for me
Love is for people who believe
 And I don’t think I can keep fooling
 Myself anymore and believing in
 Something that I do not believe in
I can’t remember when I stopped believing
 But I never thought it’ll get this far, that I’ll
 Totally stop believing it’ll happen to me
Pessimism has become my new best friend
And I do not cherish him at all

(c) Me

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

Eternal bubble

My head is spinning
I can’t keep my thoughts
Under control anymore
All these questions
 Floating in my head
Are making me dizzy
 And confused
 
I feel like I’m walking
Inside a big and very
 Dark bubble, which is
Keeping me unhappy and sad
I’m afraid that
This scary bubble
 Is about to burst

What do I do
If it gets that far
And the bubble bursts
This bubble can’t burst
Because it will hurt
 So many people
In so many different ways

I simply can’t let that happen
I have to keep
The bubble whole
So I don’t hurt
 People I care about
Even more
 Than before

(c) Me

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Is this real?

Is this only imagination?
Or is it in fact real?
Do we feel the way
 We think we feel?
Or do we feel
 What we think we feel
Because we both know
That it cannot be?
Forbidden things
Are always the most
Desirable and wanted!
Do we feel these feelings,
Because they are forbidden?
Or are we really just fooling ourselves?
And if all this in fact is real, then
Why is it so complicated?
Can we make it?
Or are we just faking it?
I wish I knew the answer to these questions!
So many things would
 At once
Be so much easier
For both you and me!


(c) Me

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Saturday, April 19, 2008

random

Maybe you’re right,
Maybe she doesn’t
 Deserve me
But I cannot
Just throw away
So many years
Of friendship
And history
Please, forgive me

I hope you
 Understand and can
Forgive me someday

You know,
She’d hate me
For choosing you
That’s why the thing
I have to do
Pains me more
 Then you
Because I’m the one
 Who has to choose
Between HER and YOU

(c) Me

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Feelings

The feelings that I’m keeping inside
Are harder and harder to conceal
 You’re as much part of my world
 As all the rest around me

These feeling cannot be hidden anymore
‘Cause I can’t keep them inside any longer
I wish it weren’t so, but this situation
Is so complicated and tearing at my soul

I never thought that I’d feel this way

The feelings that I feel for you every day
 Are as strong as they are scary, because
I thought I couldn’t feel like this anymore


It pains me, that you are hurting too
I wish there was something I could do
My choice would be so much easier
If I were the only one that’s hurting

If it where up to me, only me, trust me
I would’ve done anything
 Just to spare you from the pain, that
I’m causing you now

(c) Me

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

Questions

Why is life so complicated?
Why do bad things keep
Happening to me?
Why can’t I for once write
About something good?

Why do I put others before me?
Why do I feel so lost
Most of the time?
Why does it all seem so unreal?

What did I do wrong?
 Is this the karma following me?
When did I become such
A big pessimist?

Why have I stopped believing?
When did I lose faith?
How do I start believing again?
Will I ever find my way
Back to me again?


(c) Me

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Darkness

There’s a darkness all around me
That takes all the energy out of me
Even though the sun is shining
I cannot feel it’s warmth
Because of all the clouds around me
The sun cannot come through and
Warm my lost soul

This darkness that I live with
Has been my companion for far too long
I’m sick of it and want to get rid of it
I just need to find a way
To let the sun in, let it in, through
All the dark and cold clouds around me

Maybe then I’ll also be able to believe
One little sunshine can
Shed some light and hope
And that little hope that I might
Allow myself to get can make all
The difference in the world.

(c) Me

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