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Even though giving up isn’t
Something I ever would do
Today I had no hope left
Of ever being happy again.

But the best part of my life
Made me realise that there
Are always bumps in the road
It’s the bumps that make it fun.

My friends were there for me
In my biggest time of need
They made me laugh and joke
And made me promise never
Ever to give up ‘til the end.

Because if there is something
I can do, they say, is get
Through everything with a smile
‘Cause smiling is what I always do.

I’m not a quitter and
I have never been one
But sometimes life just
Makes it to hart to go on.

But that’s what we have
Friends for, to make us
See that it’s worth fighting
And never giving up.

So hereby I promise
To never ever give up
And to always go on
No matter what might come
My way, bumps wont stop me!!

(c) Me

And then I’m the one that
Is forever lost, lost for you!
‘Cause you had your chance
And didn’t take it,
Now the train’s gone
On a one way road.

(c) Me
 

My love for you
Is unique and once
In a lifetime
I loved you before
I love you now
And I’ll love you ‘til
The day that I die

Long time ago
I gave my heart
To you
And it has since then
Stayed there
And that way it’ll stay
Forever and A day

(c) Me

Life sucks and is so unfair,
I don’t wanna live this life anymore!
I’m so sick and tired of everything
I have no strength anymore
For anything!
If this is the life that
I deserve, I wanan know
What I did wrong?
I wish I was never born!

(c) Me

(c) Me
 

whenever i needed you, you were never there

when ever i saw other kids with their dads
i would turn around and look for you
but you were nowhere to be seen
where have you been, oh god, where have you been

do you know how much i long for you
do you know how many times i’ve needed you 
to hug me, to comfort me and to simply hold me
do you know how many times i’ve cursed others
for having fathers, and still felt bad about feeling so

i needed you then and i need you still
i will forever be that six year old girl
looking at a burning house, a burning home
and no dad around to make her feel safe and loved
why weren’t you there then, why aren’t you here now

(c) Me 

where were you all this time
where have you been hiding
if i ever did something wrong
to deserve to loose you
than i’ll take it all back right here and now
just please say you’ll forgive me and you’ll
come back to us… we all need you soo much

i love you more then life itself and
miss you so much, there has never been
and there never will be any other man
in my life then you… dad you are my
everything, so please come back to me

(c) Me

I’m still hoping he
Wont be gone too long
And that he’ll soon come
Come back in to my life
Come as fast as he left

I might be twenty years  now
But inside I’m still
That lost little girl
Crying for her dad and home
And wishing this bad dream
Will soon be gone

Dad why aren’t you here
To make this nightmare
Disappear
Why aren’t you here
To make it all
Clear, make it all clear

Love is all I love
Feelings I can not share
Loving is all I can do
But to love someone
 I do not know how to do.

Feelings I have
And I share them with those closest to me
But to share them with someone
Whom I could give my heart to
Is something I can not do.

My heart I have given away
A long time ago
That’s when it was broken
And never given back to me.

Will I ever learn to share
The feelings I have
Will there be that one special one
For me?
And will he love me for me?

Broken hearts and loneliness
Is all I have left
But one day
I will have it all
on my special
Day!

(c) Me 

Today you say
That I’m not a child
Anymore
And now you expect me
To give you
What you have denied me

I guess I would always
Give you my heart again
Without one doubt
But this time I expect
You to do the same
Give me as much as
You have taken away

(c) Me