Trouble in Paradise
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This was written at a time when we were struggling, and before it all ended. I just came over this poem while going through som old notebooks, and I have to say I like it, even though it’s not a happy-feel-good poem…
I love this man with all my heart
but I don’t know if that’s enough
He’s struggling with himself, me and us
and I have no idea how to fix this
I wish there was something I could say
or do to make him trust in us two
like he once used to do.
It feels like there’s something unsaid,
and that’s what I don’t get
If he’s feeling too crowded and needs space
than that’s all he needs to say
I’d do anything just as long as I knew
that it would make him feel good
(c) Me
emptying my head..
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Alone… if everything were okay,
being alone wouldn’t be a
problem…
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You shattered my heart into
a zilion pieces, but still
every piece loves you just
as much as my whole heart
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The pain you put me through
cannot be compared to any
pain I’ve felt before
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If I somehow manage to
put my broken heart
back together again
I’ll never give it away again
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(c) Me
understanding is not easy
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Nobody understands or wants to understand why I have the need to protect you and think of you in all this mess and pain. Nobody gets why I can’t be selfish and just think of me, but then they have really never felt the kind of love that I feel for you, and therefore I feel sorry for them. Nobody will ever understand the way I think or still care for you, until they have loved another person the way I love you. And it’s really pissing me off, when somebody tells me to <get over it> or something like that, well you freaking get over it. I get that the people that never have felt this kind of love before can say stuff like that, but still they probably do feel strongly about somebody, maybe their mother, or father, or sister, or brother, and then I could tell them to imagine losing that person – how would they feel then? How would they then like to hear <get over it>, it wouldn’t be nice to hear. So that’s why I don’t understand why they have to tell me that. I’ll get over it when the time is right for me to get over it, for now I’d just like to be left alone with my pain.
Love, what a strange thing
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This lovely poem was written when my life was close to perfect and totally different from today, so it really hurts reading it and sharing it now, but I had totally forgotten about it, and came over it now while I was reading through some unfinished poems. It was written on march 7th 2010. I have to share it ’cause I love it, but the words and the meaning are completely wrong right now.
Love, what a strange thing
Sitting her, all alone, late one night
or early one morning in our apartment,
our apartment
had to repeat it, because it sounds so good.
just read some of your old poems,
and everything came back to me
every single late night walk,
every secret touch and talk
a couple of years have gone by now
since the time we had to fight
for what we both knew was right
and here we are, sharing an apartment
love really is a strange thing
if anybody ever told me
this is how it was going to be
I would never have believed them
but still here we are, we’ve come so far
you and I, my love, so far
the pain is yesterdays news
and all there is, is this…
the strangest thing of all…
love…
(c) Me
another week gone by..
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I gave you everything
I could give
Now there’s nothing
Left for me!
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You kept telling me
That you loved me
But you stopped
Showing me
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Words cannot describe
The emptiness inside
When you’re not
By my side
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Another freaking sunday
Gone by without you
By my side
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You could have taken
Anything and everything
But not what you took
Cause all you took from me
Is what was dearest and
Most important to me
- Yourself
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You took all I had
And all I had in life
Was you!
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I need to block out the
One I love the most
I need to block him so
I can start to live again,
Cause existing without
Living is not the right way
To go through life
But living without the
One I love the most is not
The right way to live either
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Living without you
I can not and
Will not do
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(c) Me
missing you …….
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what would you do
when everything you knew
disappeared
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i tried to drink
my sorrow away
but the pain
wouldn´t go away
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i want my life back
i know it wasn´t perfect
but it was good in a
very inperfect way
and i just want it back
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you gave me hope ,
when there was none.
you gave me strength,
when there was none.
you gave me everything
i ever hoped for
and then you just took it
all away without
even a warning
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thank you for taking
the pain away
for just a day
and being there for me
like you used to be
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i´m keeping the faith
in the two of us and
the love we have for
each other
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you kept your faith in us
when i couldn´t see
the light in all the darkness
this time i chose to be
the one carrying the faith
for both you and me
and eventually you´ll see it too
just like i did last time..
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i´m sleeping with my head
on your side of the pillow
and i hope the smell of
your perfume will
always and forever stay there
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i´m hugging the pillow
like it was you
lying next to me
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waking up in the morning
without you next to me
is as painful as i
always feared it would be
there´s an emptiness
in my heart that nothing
else can fill, than you
coming back to me
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(c) Me
i couldn’t have said it better myself…
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Lyrics to Stay With Me :
[Verse 1]
Raindrops, Fall From, Everywhere
I Reach Out, For You, But Your Not There
So I Stood, Waiting, In The Dark
With Your Picture, In My Hands
Story Of a Broken Heart
[Chorus]
Stay With Me
Don’t Let Me Go
Cause I Can’t Be Without You
Just Stay With Me
And Hold Me Close
Because I’ve Built My World Around You
And I Don’t Wanna Know What’s It Like Without You
So Stay with Me
Just Stay With Me
[Verse 2]
I’m Trying And Hoping, For The Day
When my touch is enough
To Take The Pain Away
Cause I’ve Searched For So Long
The Answer Is Clear
We’ll be OK if We Don’t Let It Disappear
[Chorus]
Stay With Me
Don’t let Me go
Cause I Can’t Be Without You
Just Stay With Me
And Hold Me Close
Because I’ve Built My World Around You
And I Don’t Wanna Know What’s it Like Without You
So Stay with Me
Just Stay With Me
[Verse 3]
I’ve searched my heart over
So many many times
No you and I, is like no stars to light the sky at night
Our Picture Hangs Out Of Tune
Remind Me Of The Days
You Promised Me We’d Always
And Never Go Away
That’s Why I Need You To Stay
[Chorus]
Stay With Me
Don’t let Me go
Cause I Can’t Be Without You
Just Stay With Me
And Hold Me Close
Because I’ve Built My World Around You
And I Don’t Wanna Know What’s It Like Without You
So Stay with Me
Just Stay With Me
[Fades]
oooo.. oh oh
don’t leave
so I stay waiting in the dark…
loss
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i lost all that mattert to me
the day you said “i give up”
with just three little words
the world as i knew it just
vanished for good
just the thought of
no more you and me
not ever again
makes me want to
go to sleep and
never wake up
the pieces left of me
will be hard to pick up
’cause noone ever knew
better then you how to
make me feel good again
my love, i will always
miss your smiley face
your lovely embrace
and your beatiful eyes
will hunt me ’til i die
(c) Me
Crushed again
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can it really be
that my world again
has crushed down
upon me?
how could it
go like this
i thought
this was it!
without you
by my side
there si no
meaning to this life!
the pain that
i’m feeling now
does not help me
to think forward
there is no future
for me where
there is no you
by me!
(c) Me
Scared once again
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There are scary little thoughts
creaping into my mind once again
just to make me doubt or to
wake me up?!
Maybe my world isn’t as
perfect as I sometimes chose
to believe, maybe there’s
really something going on?!
Is it really possible that
my own thoguths are
trying to warn me about
you and what you do?!
And could you really hurt me
with the thing I fear the most?
Could you really turn out to
be as bad as she used to tell me?!
(c) Me
07.march.2010
